I came across these articles which I thought were very wise. And some put a smile on my face. I realise time and time again that I am not the only one with doubts and worries about the reality of raising a child. And I somehow find comfort thinking that if we are worried then maybe that makes us more self aware and hopefully most things we are getting right.
I am constantly second guessing myself. Doubting myself. And desperately wanting to get this motherhood thing under control and working brilliantly. Then I fall asleep and wake up, life takes over and I feel I fall short again. At the moment, there are things going on in my life that are frankly out of my control and I am relying heavily on the people around to help with Caitlin even more - particularly my partner. So more guilt.